What mercies has He bestowed upon me?

Today I had some pretty powerful experiences that I feel like I need to write down so that I will always remember. This morning I woke up early to run and started off by praying. Yesterday, Reese had a rough day and I was losing my patience and yelled at her. I still felt bad this morning even after repenting last night. I was repenting again and thinking how much I need the spirit in my life right now. How much do I need to hear my Heavenly Father's voice. I remember thinking that I cannot be doing anything that makes me lose the spirit because I need His guidance more than ever. After praying, I started to read my scriptures. I am in Alma 33 and in v.16, it reads, ".......because they will not understand thy mercies which thou hast bestowed upon them because of thy Son." After reading this verse, I thought to myself, "What mercies has he bestowed upon me during our adoption effort?'
Here are a few of the things that came to mind.....
- Genesha contacting us
-Finding Jay
-Getting to be with the twins for a week in Pa
-Words spoken with Genesha at Jay's office
-Getting flights home so quickly
-My kids and ron at the airport
-Jay calling and finding a way to terminate Keffe's rights
- Steph and Nick
-Easing the concerns and tensions of Genesha
-Statute appealed
-Ron seeing the twins and spending the day with the Corfee family
-Steph and Nick deciding to care for the twins for 2 more weeks
- Easing Genesha's worries

I then started to think about how Ron and I needed to go on a date night and that we should go to the temple tomorrow. I remembered that Stephanie had given me a name back and I started to wonder if we could do a sealing tomorrow. I logged in to FamilySearch.org and started looking up this person. His name is Roy E. Shomer and he is my great grandfather. My grandma B's father. It looked like there was a sealing that needed to be performed and there were also a lot of other work that I needed to do from his line. As I thought about doing this person's sealing, I remembered back when we adopted Nora and I felt like my Grandma K was helping us on the other side to be able to adopt Nora. Right after this thought came to my mind, I felt like I was encircled about with love, the Spirit, Heavenly angels, I guess you could say. I can't exactly explain the feeling, but it was as if I was encircled about by angels and I felt that is was Roy Shomer and descendants from that side of the family that filled my heart with so much love. The feelings that came to my heart was, "We are here for you too." The spirit was so strong that I started to hyperventilate a little and to sob. This feeling lasted for at least 5 minutes. Ron came upstairs so we could pray before he left for work and I began to tell him what just happened. The spirit was still so strong that I just sobbed as I told him. I didn't want this feeling to leave and so I didn't even turn on the tv for the rest of my run. I just continued to thank Heavenly Father for thy mercies and this experience. I realized that from this experience, The atonement is real. I needed to feel the spirit and I was so scared that I had offended the spirit and wouldn't be able to feel the spirit for a while, but I know that the atonement is real. Repentance works, and we can be forgiven. I know this because I felt the spirit again shortly after repenting. My testimony of prayer was strengthened. I had been praying to feel the spirit and prayed to know "What mercies had He bestowed upon me?" He answered with something that is more than I ever imagined.
He has bestowed so many mercies upon me and just when I don't know what else I could do to bring Gemma and Eli home, Heavenly Father blesses me with His grace and mercy. He shows me that I have many Heavenly angels looking out for me and helping us to bring the babies home. We are not alone. When Heavenly Father blesses us with His grace, He blesses us with Heavenly help. Not only has He blessed us with earthly angels, such as Steph and Nick, but He has blessed us with Heavenly angels as well. I felt them as sure as I have felt anything tangible. After this experience, I had the desire to do the family lines work. I texted Stephanie and asked her to find a specific woman andshe found this person, as well as a lot of other family members. The hearts of the children shall be turned to their father's and the hearts of the father's shall turn to their father's.