Baby Update......

So I have been wanting to write more about our potential adoption, but I was really worried about what to write because I was not sure who was reading my post. Now that I can put my blog back to private, I can unload many of thoughts over the past few weeks. So here it goes...........
          When we first met Sadie (birthmother), she had just barely moved to Utah from Texas in hopes of placing her baby for adoption. The birthfather had wanted her to get an abortion and then when she would not, he wanted his parents to adopt the baby. His family is really wealthy and his parents were planning on adopting the baby and then hiring a nanny to take care of the baby while Sadie and the birthfather went to college. They were very controlling and so Sadie decided she did not want that for the baby. Sadie and the birthfather were no longer together and no longer kept in contact so she made the decision to move to Utah. Her aunt and uncle moved her up to Utah and the agency found her a family to live with. She told us from the beginning that this could be a potential high risk adoption, but we felt the spirit and felt that this child was supposed to come to our family. As the weeks have gone by, the birthfather has become more and more involved and did not want this baby adopted. As we have prayed that his heart will be softened toward adoption, I have seen that happen and it is a miracle. Even though it is just a small step, we will hear that he wants to talk to us or that he isn't opposed to adoption anymore, but he isn't for it either. It really has been a roller coaster of emotions. The first few weeks, I was really excited and didn't have a doubt in my mind. I don't have doubts that this child is supposed to come to our family, but if this adoption will actually happen. I know Heavenly Father will not take away our agency and if the birthmother or birthfather decided to parent this child, they have that right.
          A few weeks ago, I was having so much anxiety about the birthfather and what he was going to do that I felt like my heart was constantly racing. I would break out in hives all the time because of the stress and   it felt like my leg was bouncing and fidgeting constantly. I asked Ron for a blessing and it really helped. It seemed like the same things were going on, but I just have a peace and a calmness that has come over me. I know that Heavenly Father is watching over us and that he knows my heart. He is preparing me for whatever is to come. We love this baby girl and are hopeful that she will be able to come to our family soon. The birthmother will hopefully have the baby in the next few days. She is planning on relinquishing her rights 48 hours after the baby is born. That is when the baby will come home with us. The birthfather has another 24 hours after the birthmother relinquishes her rights to register for his rights. So we will know for sure that she is ours after those 72 hours. So that is what has been going on. Thanks for your prayers!!

23 months

23 months and this girl just keeps getting funnier and funnier. I completely understand now how the author came up with the "Amelia Bedilia" books. I am sure she just had a 2 year old.  The other day, Reese was in the bath and she said she wanted to get out so I asked her to let the water out. Which she was excited to do. She started throwing water out of the tub and laughing. I should have asked her differently, but it is funny. Another example is that she was drinking a cup of water and I thought it was all gone. I asked her where all her water went and said, "Did it go in your belly?" She looked at me for a second and then lifted up her shirt and poured her water all over her belly. I had to write down all of the funny things she has done in the last month. These funny things are the ones where you are covering your mouth so your child cannot see that you are laughing and you are trying to discipline them. 

-Reese was eating a bag of goldfish and I went into the bathroom. When I came out, she had dumped the whole bag of fish on the floor and was stomping on them while the dog was eating them as fast as she could.I I told her no and that she needed to clean it up. So we were cleaning it up and almost done, when she hurried and dumped the bag again. I told her to go into time-out and I cleaned up the mess. When I asked Reese why she did that, she said, "funny." Then I told her that it made me sad when she didn't obey me and asked her if she liked to make Mama sad. She shook her head yes and said, "Mama funny." So I have learned this month that Reese just likes to get a reaction out of me. 

-Reese came running into my bedroom yelling, "Stuck Stuck" and she had a big pink bead stuck in her nose. 

-Reese's friend always calls her "Freesie." So now Reese tells people her name is Freesie. 

-She asks for ice cream after every meal

- We were eating dinner and she stuck her foot in her mashed potatoes and the did a heal stretch like she was proud of herself. 

- During sacrament, she would run up to Ron on the stand and try to make faces at people over the little ledge, but because she is not tall enough, you could only see her little Afro moving around. 

- She does an awesome Ganghnam Style dance

- She lights up any room

- She is constantly doing somersaults and jumping around

- yesterday she was jumping on her tramp and then started yelling "ouch ouch" and was rubbing her bum. I asked her if it itched and she said yes. So I went over and started scratching her bum for her and she yells, "Mama you did it, you did it!" Apparently I made the itch go away. Yes, I am amazing:)

- Today we took Sachi to the groomers and Reese has never done this before. We dropped her off and I was trying to put Reese back in her car seat, but she was thrashing around and yelling no. She started bawling and I asked her what was wrong and she said, "Sachi no, Sachi no." I almost started crying when I realized that she thought we were leaving Sachi for good. It took me about 10 minutes, but I finally convinced her that Sachi was at Puppyland having a fun time. I forget how inseparable those two are.

- Yes, this is my eye mask in the picture below.

Kawaguchi Bowling

A couple weekends ago, we went bowling with the Kawaguchi side of the family. It was a lot of fun and it is amazing to me that with just a simple text, over 50 members of our family show up to bowl. Not only does everybody show up, but they all bowl as well. My family is so supportive and love to keep the family close. My great aunts, who are around 70 years old were even bowling. I have realized lately how grateful I am for great-grandparents that put their family first. In Japan, it is very uncommon to have more than a couple of kids, so I am grateful for their courage to move to the United States and have 12 kids. My grandparents had 6 kids and we now have a very big family that I love.

Random Things about me

I don't know how many of you were tagged on Instagram to write 5 random facts about yourself, but it was pretty fun and I thought I would write some of those random facts about myself on the blog. I'm sure I will laugh at this post one day. So here are some random things about me......

- I love Downton Abbey

- I have always wanted to live in a Jane Austin book and wear the dresses and go to the balls. 

- I am a huge multi-tasker

-I love doing the laundry and hate doing the dishes

- I don't trust my cooking skills

- I feel more comfortable around kids than adults

- I am a respiratory therapist

-I turn the tv on for background noise all the time and am really trying to stop this habit

-I secretly let our dog in our room and sleep by my bed when Ron is gone

- I am addicted to hand sanitizers and wash my hands after everything, but am not the best at putting lotion on and so my hands are usually really dry. 

- I am lucky if I get ready 3 days a week.

- I love to make checklists

- I love to rock Reese to sleep in her rocking chair

- Reese and I watch cartoons in my bed almost every morning

- I am a home body and love love being home

- The longest I have been away from Reese is 10 hours 

- I love not wearing make-up

- I love to write in my journals

- I love to shop online

- my face is really heat sensitive and turns bright red if my face gets even a little hot.
- I don't like driving