jan 10. 2017
Today has been a very difficult and yet a faith filled day. We had court this morning at 10:30am in Pennsylvania. Ron left yesterday right after partaking of the sacrament. He slipped out and as he looked back at me, I wanted to cry. He was about in tears as he walked out the door. Ron started his fast on Saturday night and fasted all Sunday, and most of Monday. He truly knows how to bring down the power of God and I'm so grateful for the wonderful man he is. I fasted yesterday morning and also this morning. I knew that Heavenly Father was with us and that we were in his hands. This morning, Ron met Jay and they went to court. Ron said that the birth father showed up to court without an attorney again and the judge appointed Keffe an attorney. Keffe had said that he couldn't afford an attorney because he had bought his other kids gift for Christmas and he forgot about court. It all sounded like there were lies everywhere, but ultimately, the judge appointed Keffe an attorney and pushed court back to Jan 25th. No one even had a chance to testify and we felt like Ron flew out to Pennsylvania for nothing. Everyone was infuriated with the judges decision. One good thing that happened is that we were able to change the statute that they are trying to terminate the birth father's rights. There are now 2 charges against Keffe now that the judge can terminate his rights. We were all very discouraged, but then Ron went to see the twins and everything changed. At one point after court, I was praying to know if we should keep moving forward. When Ron got to the Corfee's home, we face timed and I received my answer. As I watched Ron with the babies, I knew he is supposed to be their dad and that they are supposed to come to our family. I had absolutely no doubts about if these babies are meant for our family. They are the perfect completion to our family. I loved watching Ron with the Corfee boys as well. Because of the stress of Keffe, the Corfee's didn't feel comfortable or safe keeping the babies in their home any longer. I completely understood their fears. After trying to find a place for the twins to go for a few hours, Genesha felt so stuck and hopeless. She didn't have anyone to watch the twins. Ron called me and said the Corfee's decided to care for the babies until the 25th. This was such an act of love and sacrifice. My heart was so full of love and gratitude because of the Corfee's sacrifice they made for our family. Although, things had seem to be falling apart earlier, I felt somehow someway, Heavenly Father was preparing things so that we could adopt the twins. Jay thought the judge might have did what she did so that there was no way that Keffe could appeal the judges decision later on.
Jan 23, 2017
Today I started having a lot of anxiety about Ron going out to court in Pennsylvania. Which led to anxiety about all of us being in Pennsylvania. Reese has also been dealing with separation anxiety and I have started to feel a lot of guilt because of the stress she has had to deal with. I finally decided to pray about it and ask Heavenly Father if Ton should fly out to Pennsylvania to go to court. I poured out my heart to Heavenly Father and told him how scared I was for my family. How scared I was that something would happen to Ron, myself, Stephanie, or leaving our kids without a parent. I asked him to please let us know if we were making the right decision. At this point I was crying because I can't stand the thought of anything happening to our family or Stephanie. I then closed my prayer and started to read D&C 8-9.
D&C 9: 14
"Stand fast in the work wherewith I have called you, and a hair of your head shall not be lost, and you shall be lifted up at the last day. Amen."
I started bawling as I read this verse. It was a complete answer to my prayers and the feelings in my heart were that of the Holy Ghost and I knew that God could not lie. I knew that He was telling me that not only will I protect your family, but not even a hair of their head will be lost. He truly knows the desires of our hearts. He knows the end from the beginning and He knew exactly what I needed to hear before Ron flew out to Pennsylvania. I thought about this scripture before Ron left, before I left, while we were there, and even while we have been home. Heavenly Father has been involved the entire time and He will protect us.
January 28th 2017
I Amon the plane coming home from Philadelphia and as I read this verse, I am reminded of all the feelings I felt yesterday as I was running and reading my scriptures. I was going through all these verses yesterday and praying as I went through all the things to pray for. As I prayed for Mercy, I told Heavenly Father, I know I have asked so much o you lately and I am so grateful, but knowing you are a merciful God, if there is any way to help us go home quickly so we can be safe and unite as a family, please help this to happen. I wouldn't ask this if I wasn't scared, but I am and that I why I ask this.. in the name of Jesus Christ amen. A few hours later, I was telling Stephanie about my prayer, but also told her that I knew it wasn't possible because Utah needed to receive the paper ICPC papers. Later on that night, Ron called me and told me that Genevieve had pushed and called Utah and told them about the situation and how long we had been waiting and utah ICPC made an exception and we were cleared to come home. This was an absolute miracle. I have no doubt in my mind that Heavenly Father made this happen. There is no other way. He is truly a merciful God!
18 Yea, cry unto him for mercy; for he is mighty to save.
19 Yea, humble yourselves, and continue in prayer unto him.
20 Cry unto him when ye are in your fields, yea, over all your flocks.
21 Cry unto him in your houses, yea, over all your household, both morning, mid-day, and evening.
22 Yea, cry unto him against the power of your enemies.
23 Yea, cry unto him against the devil, who is an enemy to all righteousness.
24 Cry unto him over the crops of your fields, that ye may prosper in them.
25 Cry over the flocks of your fields, that they may increase.
26 But this is not all; ye must pour out your souls in your closets, and your secret places, and in your wilderness.
27 Yea, and when you do not cry unto the Lord, let your hearts be full, drawn out in prayer unto him continually for your welfare, and also for the welfare of those who are around you.
I Amon the plane coming home from Philadelphia and as I read this verse, I am reminded of all the feelings I felt yesterday as I was running and reading my scriptures. I was going through all these verses yesterday and praying as I went through all the things to pray for. As I prayed for Mercy, I told Heavenly Father, I know I have asked so much o you lately and I am so grateful, but knowing you are a merciful God, if there is any way to help us go home quickly so we can be safe and unite as a family, please help this to happen. I wouldn't ask this if I wasn't scared, but I am and that I why I ask this.. in the name of Jesus Christ amen. A few hours later, I was telling Stephanie about my prayer, but also told her that I knew it wasn't possible because Utah needed to receive the paper ICPC papers. Later on that night, Ron called me and told me that Genevieve had pushed and called Utah and told them about the situation and how long we had been waiting and utah ICPC made an exception and we were cleared to come home. This was an absolute miracle. I have no doubt in my mind that Heavenly Father made this happen. There is no other way. He is truly a merciful God!
18 Yea, cry unto him for mercy; for he is mighty to save.
19 Yea, humble yourselves, and continue in prayer unto him.
20 Cry unto him when ye are in your fields, yea, over all your flocks.
21 Cry unto him in your houses, yea, over all your household, both morning, mid-day, and evening.
22 Yea, cry unto him against the power of your enemies.
23 Yea, cry unto him against the devil, who is an enemy to all righteousness.
24 Cry unto him over the crops of your fields, that ye may prosper in them.
25 Cry over the flocks of your fields, that they may increase.
26 But this is not all; ye must pour out your souls in your closets, and your secret places, and in your wilderness.
27 Yea, and when you do not cry unto the Lord, let your hearts be full, drawn out in prayer unto him continually for your welfare, and also for the welfare of those who are around you.
My testimony has been strengthened so much in many different things. My testimony has been strengthened in Heavenly angels and that they are a powerful force to access heavenly help throughout our life. They are part of the grace that is available through the atonement. Because of what I felt when I had the experience and knowing that our ancestors are here to help, I knew that angels would be in the courtroom. I knew it! After Ron told me everything that happened in court and how the judge handled things, I knew even more that angels were in the courtroom. What I didn't realize is that they were with us the entire time and making sure we made it home safely. One of the ways that Heavenly Father protected us is through his angels. Angels were truly there round about to protect us and make sure that" not a hair of our head would be lost." I know that they are still doing that. I am so grateful for these experiences that strengthnen my testimony and teach me about the things of eternity.
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