I have been trying to update my blog since everything happened, but my extra time has been a little bit occupied lately. So going back to Friday, March 15th. Ron and I celebrated our 5 year anniversary. We didn't want to go anywhere because we were afraid that Sadie would go into labor. She was supposed to call us when she went into labor and then was planning on spending her 48 hrs with the baby and then we were going to have placement (She relinquishes her rights and the baby comes home with us) at discharge. So it was 8:00pm and our caseworker called me and asked if Sadie had called me. I told her she hadn't and then she asked me if we could be down in American Fork tomorrow morning at 7:45am for placement. I started crying and asked her what was going on and she told us that Sadie had the baby Thursday morning around 3:00am and she just wanted this time with the baby. Our caseworker said she was going crazy trying to not tell us. So we went to work cleaning the house and putting up the pack n play and getting a diaper bag ready and finding someone to watch Reese. We put Reese to bed and I cried as I thought that Reese's world is about to change and she doesn't have a clue. I went to bed around 1:30am and woke up at 5:00am to start getting things ready. On our way down to American Fork, Ron and I were talking about how it didn't seem real that we were going to pick up our baby and it wouldn't feel real until we brought her home. We were supposed to have placement at 8:00am. So we were waiting in this little room and 8:00,8:30, 9:00 went by and Sadie still was not ready to sign. Her caseworker came in and said Sadie was having a difficult time and was thinking about her options again and not signing. Her aunt and uncle came in to talk to us and her aunt broke down sobbing into her husbands shoulder. They said how this has been the most difficult thing they have ever done in their lives. The aunt went back in to be with Sadie and the uncle stayed and talked with us. He said that Sadie was still hoping that the birthfather would come and save them. He would be like a white knight who would show up and say that he wanted to marry her and they would raise the baby and live happily ever after. So the fact that he hadn't come was a big rejection to her as well. He told us how Sadie's mom came for the birth and was perfect in everything she said and did. About 20 minutes later, the aunt came running in and said, "She's ready", (as in ready to sign), and her caseworker and uncle went running into her room. I immediately asked our caseworker if we could say a prayer and the spirit was so strong. I thought of our lesson in young womens the other day in which we talked about grace. That strengthening and enabling power to do what you cannot do on your own. I prayed that Sadie would be blessed with our Savior's grace and she was truly blessed with the help of heaven. About 30 minutes later, the aunt and uncle walked in with our beautiful baby girl and said, "Hi mom and dad". Ron ad I both burst into tears as we met our baby girl for the first time. We couldn't believe she actually signed the papers and that we would be the parents of this beautiful baby girl. So many emotions of gratitude and love flooded my mind as I watched Sadie's aunt and uncle trying to fight back the tears and looking at our perfect baby girl we had prayed and fasted for. We took a couple of pictures and then got ready to take our new baby girl home. As we drove home, it still didn't feel real. I loved this baby girl so much, but was still a little scared that the birthfather would interfere. He had until the end of the work day on monday to register for his rights. So Sunday and Monday were a mix of emotions. I was so happy, but also a little guarded because I couldn't have another baby taken from us. Anyway, our prayers were answered and we found out Tuesday that our baby is ours for good. We love her so much and I still can't believe that I have been blessed to be the mother of 2 beautiful girls. I feel so lucky to say "my girls". My heart is so full of love for my family and it feels like a fairytale. I am just so happy and grateful to Sadie and her family, grateful to our Heavenly Father, and grateful to everyone for all of their prayers. I know that Nora belongs in our family and I felt that very strongly from the beginning. She is perfect and the most content baby and we love her so much. I haven't even touched on Reese and Nora, so that will have to wait for the next post.
